Im tired, you all.
No really, Im just tired of it all. What Ive been doing to myself (in secret, of course) has gotten so mentally sickening that I want to stop as soon as possible.
Why have I denigrated myself to this point over a course of a year? I once had these things in total disrepute, but now I rely on such things for pleasurable fantasy.
Im hoping to turn back the clock a bit and stop doing alot of things that Ive only been doing within the time that Ive come back from St. Louis. I will no longer do chat rooms, I will no longer look at things that are even close in nature to porn, I will no longer do THAT thing (you know, self-pleasure….), and from now on, I’ll pursue strictly the interests that I started off with in the first place, particularly therianthropy, neuro-linguistic programming, and (most of all) politics.
Sorry, I just feel crappy today…I’ll post something that makes ALOT more sense later…
=P It’s perfectly normal, But if it’s what you wanna do, than go for it. I’m just saying that It’s not nessasary.
It’s completely normal….Why do you feel like you have to stop?
serendipitous find . . .
tripped over your site when I spotted your post to the south africa community. I see you’re at Warner-Robins (AFB?) I’m ex-Air Force, so picked up on the possible connection. also, wonder if you got in OK at Stanford.
p.s. — don’t completely give up on “THAT thing” ;-D
Re: serendipitous find . . .
lol X-D
yep, I’ve been stuck here in “Wartown” since 1992, but its only because my sister’s ex was stationed here at the time. Now Mom stays here because she gotten emotionally and spiritually tied to the church that she’s been going to since 1994.
And plus, if we were to find Mom’s tax form from 2003 by the end of the month, I’ll be good to go as far as Macon State is concerned (until my 12th grade graduation in May), and then I’ll be able to register at Stanford as a transfer student for the Fall quarter.