Its whatever time that you see displayed, and Im tired.

Furthermore, Im now convinced that these hypnosis files dont work, Im not gonna front about them. And its for these two reasons:

1) In order to have an hypnosis of any kind, you have to make the goal of the hypnosis as concrete and tangible to the hypnosee as possible. At least a picture or sculpture can help, not only as a tangible/visual focus aid, but just words wont help. obviously these people who make the files havent gotten a clue about that, they think that just because they can have you relax as much as possible, they can tell you anything that they want you to do, even though you, the hypnosee, know that such isnt possible or conceivable within your mindset, which leads me to my second reason;

2) In order to engender a true hypnosis, the hypnosee has to be “initiated” or “enticed”; in other words, given a simple small beginner’s piece of trance, which will turn on his/her senses to a slightly deeper hypnosis on the next time. He/she should never be given a trance that he/she isnt ready and ripe for, because if he/she IS given a hypnosis or trance that is too early for him/her, then he/she will reject or react unsatisfactorially toward it, for his mindset hasnt been brought to that level yet, so why do the people who make these files think that it works otherwise?

3) Hypnosis/mind control isnt something to toy with: its actually very comparable to sending a winzip folder through file-sharing in order to be opened (and its contents extracted) by the receiving computer and its own winzip program.It is information that has to be put in a “suitcase” and then sent to your subconscious, where it should be unzipped in order to extract all the content which is to be installed into your subconscious. And of course, you have to have ALL THE RIGHT PROGRAMMING sorted out CORRECTLY when you fit it all into the suitcase so that the receiving subconscious wont receive a whole lot of mumbo-jumbo. This is something that the files at warpmymind.com have definately failed to honor and accomplish, which prolly explains why the files arent even half-effective in the first place.

4) A strong suggestion that would probably save the credibility of these files: MAKE ALL OF THE FILES EITHER SUBLIMINAL OR BINAURAL OR BOTH. As much as these files seem to lack any wholesome and effective substance, at least transmitting them subliminally or binaurally would give the senses an intoxication or a veil for the messages to be sent straight into the subconscious, silently bypassing the senses in the process.

Otherwise, I see no hope or credulity for these files at all.

Im going to bed. I have school in the morning (ick).

Since the storm hit us last night with a vengeance, I, Mom, and the kids stayed at home today, and skipped school/work. So Im stuck here with two very annoying kids that I wish I could just wish out of the house for at least a few days. One cries (the one who’s two), one whines (the one who’s turning 12 at the end of the month).

But hey, at least Im not at school today. Not like Id ever want to see it again. >X-(P (newly crafted smiley for “bleh”. like it?)

Oh, and Kit suggested eastern Canada as my destination for college (she resides in Maine). I think I have more connectibility with that area than Minnesota, since, back in the days where I wasnt born, Mom and dad were married, and dad was in the air force, they were stationed at Loring AFB in Maine, and the went across the border very often to either shop in Montreal or take a “shortcut” whenever they had to drive back to St. Louis. But I mean, hell, that was back in the 1970’s.They closed down Loring some years back, and now it serves as an industrial park of sorts. I think that’s what Kit refered to when she said that she works on “base”.

So yeah, looking at Canada again, for the millionth time. *sigh*

Oh yeah, and Im gonna address a problem that Im having with the files from http://warpmymind.com, especially the FurryTransformation mp3. Ill post their reply to my query in my next post.

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Well, while listening to one of the hypnosis files from warpmymind.com last night, I had a dream which I prolly wont be able to get out of my head for a LONG while.

I dreamed of Mrs. Patrick, my late L.A. teacher. Living and in the flesh.

I dont know much of what else was featured in the dream, but that was the main thing that I remember from it.

When I told Mom this morning, she was saying that I need to come back to Christianity (or as they put it, “get saved”), mentioning that we had a hot discussion (one that I didnt want to get into) on the way to church concerning what I said (“You know what, I dont even care anymore.” “You mean you dont care about Christ anymore?!” “No, Im not saying that!” “Then what you sayin’?!” “I told you, Mom, Im just not Christian anymore. havent been, aight?!”) , so after what I had said about my religious status yesterday, it didnt surprise her that I saw Mrs. Patrick in my dream.

Since she herself knew Mrs. Patrick (in fact, Mrs. Patrick was an inspiration to my Mom spiritually), she saw her presence in my dream as a notion that the divine is calling to me (as in, “God is trying to tell you something”). I myself think it has something to do with those hypnosis files Ive been listening to in my sleep for the last two or three nights (and speaking of which, I almost found myself in hypnosis last night. Just a little more work, and Ill have myself a little hypnosis! yay!).

Honestly, I dont know what to think about this. Teh snowkitteh ish confuzzled. 😛

Well, except for being with Mom and the kids all day, its been a rather good Saturday, compared to most days this time around. Basically, the next-to-perfect kind of day would like this:

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I am watching you
Watching the way you watch people do
The things that they do
As you grow older – learning
Child understanding
About the way that a soul on a soul on a soul can be born
Can be beautiful

Ho hey, never stop learning
Ho hey, never stop wandering
Baby’s growing older
Oh my child never stop learning
Now baby, baby, yeah- don’t you ever stop learning
Baby, baby, yeah- don’t you ever stop learning

For Jasmine
Lyrics by Jasmine Rodgers
Music by bôa
Written for Jasmine Henderson

I thought about that song today at school, and suddenly I was enlightened by the lyrics. It felt like an encouragement for me, and I guess that it was meant for me to figure out just how relevant that the lyrics are to my life while Im dealing with my anger, which I realize is directed in all the wrong directions (look at my comments to the two last posts at africandiaspora).

Everythings gone way out of wack. So such lyrics as these are strangely meaningful to me these days. I love Boa’s music anyways. Greatest band that youll ever hear in your lifetime (or any lifetime, in that case), hands down.

There are two things that Ive learned from experience so far:

Influence comes from the outside, but change comes from the inside. (Learned that from Mr. Lee, the only teacher besides the late Mrs. Patrick with whom I can carry an actually intelligent conversation)

After youve done something that you like so many times, it becomes painfully redundant. (Thats when Id like best to just die.)

Let me focus on the second a bit. I do the same thing everyday, and now it just seems WAY too routine. And when something becomes routine, Id then start to just back away from it. So basically Im just running out of things that I like to do. And plus, such things like going through routines can make a person ill at ease, which is prolly why on Monday at 6 in the evening, I just went off the computer and stayed in bed for 12 hours straight. I have less and less interest in the things I do, even though I still read (in fact, Im picking foreign country books back up after a long hiatus that had been spent on the comp).

Ive backed away almost totally from DA, which doesnt surprise me, as several people I know have done the same for their own reasons.

Whats wrong with me? Whats wrong with the world? I skipped the ENTIRE Olympics for God’s sakes! How can I miss the fucking Olympics?! I would never intentionally miss the Olympics. Ive always wayched as much of the Olympics as possible since the 94 Olympics in Lillehammer. But for some VERY ODD REASON, I just skipped the ENTIRE OLYMPICS. Like, I just didnt have any interest in it at all. Not in the news, not in much of the scandal (all though I did hear much about how the US did poorly in several of the fields that they were supposed to dominate, like MEN’S BASKETBALL), I just didnt pay much attention to it. AT ALL.

Tell me, is it me or is it the world that is getting “blah” and “duh”?

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Arrgh! Wednesday is “Red Shirt Day”, where all the students have to wear red polo shirts. Then Thursday is “White Shirt Day”, where they have to wear white polo shirts AND listen to sermons and “pep” talk by the heads of the school/church, as well as do military drills, as in “ten-hut!”, about-face!”, “present arms!”, “order arms!”, “right-face!”, “left-face!”, etc. (dont forget, the guys who run this school/church are black men AND have served in the military. Bad combo right there.)

DAMMIT I HATE THIS GODDAMNED SCHOOL/CHURCH!!!

cant wait to get out at the end of this semester. Only 4 more months!!! (Im going to keep on saying that until it actually comes, just to keep up hope for myself.)

Hello all, right now, Im getting ready for yet another dumbass day at school. Me, typing at 6:30-something in the morning. Now aint that a rarity of sorts?

Well, anyway, I just woke up from 12 straight hours of sleep. Bleh, and I STILL feel tired. I went to bed at around 6 yesterday. Why? I have no idea. I just stopped talking to WolfDak and Beaky on AIM all of a sudden because I just felt worn out. My apologies to both of them, I was just feeling WAY out of it right then. Didnt have anything to eat either, yet I still dont feel that hungry as I should be right now. Strange?

Anyway, Ill prolly post more after school today. Stay tuned.

Oh yeah, JUST 4 MORE MONTHS TILL IM OUT OF F-ING PRIVATE SCHOOL!!! >:-D

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