If it wasn’t for watching this one video on TV at night (only because Wanda was watching it), after a day spent entirely in bed:

It’s not like I’m really itching for this winter quarter to start on Tuesday. In fact, I’ll be taking classes that I should’ve taken back in fall 2005, such as psychology.

But for right now, the daylight isn’t missed. I haven’t gotten any closer to where I want to be, or to what I exactly want to do.
Even asking questions – any question – is harder for me than it used to be.

Last quarter was my final technology-related quarter, and I’m disappointed that, while I passed, I neither did better than I could’ve, nor did I get what I really wanted out of it. I really wanted to create a wiki from scratch as my final project in “Database Connectivity”, but realized a few weeks before the end that I wouldn’t have the resources for accomplishing such a feat (it actually requires study material from certain university-level courses, as I found out from the teacher).

I hope that I don’t let this disappointment and anxiety take me over some unforeseen edge.

Plus, maybe it was a crash course, this whole program that I’ve taken; a highly embarrassing crash course, but one from which I’ve learned quite a bit.

This program, to be a bit retrospective, is something into which I’ve been wanting to delve since I was probably 9 years old, when we first got a computer (a spare from a friend at the church) at home. I used it, primarily to use Collier’s Encyclopedia on CD, and was interested whenever it had to connect to the Internet. So, I nagged my mother to get an ISP, but she was very set against getting AOL (she already detested the CDs in the washing detergent that they sold at the Commissary), so I found a mail-in Compuserve CD instead.

Don’t remember what happened next or if mom ever subscribed to Compuserve, but for some reason the computer either blue-screened, caught a virus, or something like that. Either way, the computer was rendered useless by whatever I did to it (I remember that I put a password into the BIOS configuration settings of the PC, but not much else).

But ever since then, I was strongly fascinated by the Internet/WWW, and wanted desperately to get onto it. I think the Digimon thing only aggravated my festering affinity for the Internet, and I tried every possible free, accessible means in order to make use of what it had to offer at the time.

I remember that, when “Digimon the Movie” had come out in theaters (in 2000, I think), I used a computer of my mother’s hair designer friend who lived much further down Watson Blvd. I looked at the Movie’s website using Netscape Navigator, making sure to head to another page when my mother was nearby for fear that she would find out.

By the time that we got the Internet at home (2004), Digimon was on the wane, I was on top of the Internet as far as I was concerned.

Oh, how the high and mighty have fallen, lol.