I’m doing my final paper in English 191 on the furry fandom and multimedia genre. I have to turn it in next week.

Seems appropriate, I suppose. Despite never having traveled to a convention and never maintaining any face-to-face relationships with any particular furry, I have been tied by interest to the furry genre since when I started to use the Internet on a frequent basis (2002). Furthermore, I have been a “fan” of the “funny animal” genre for much longer, even though I never understood why.

What’s wierd, however, is that I STILL don’t know why I have taken such a longtime interest in the furry/funny animal genre.

So I ask myself….is it because of some unnatural, sexually-attractive undercurrent that draws my face to a furry/funny animal picture like a mouth-hooked fish to a boat?

I mean, most assuredly, I remember when I was actually afraid of a guy who talked like a woman (two of them were in the church). Years later, I find my own sexual attitudes becoming far more ambiguous than what they once were, and I’m far less certain about my own sexual affinities.

But again, I’m not an outgoing individual, so I’m not into sex.

So what is it? If it’s not a sexual attraction, what is it?

Why am I so obsessed with anything furry-related?

Why have I been so interested in it for so long?

Is this a fad, a phase, or a nagging disease?