I was listening to NPR the other day, while driving home from Macon. They were interviewing this one psychologist on her views about creativity and how one is supposed to react when his or her creativity has ran down to the point of nil.

She explained that, for her own personal example, one day a few years ago, she was minding her own business when all of a sudden, she had an urge to write a book. She followed that urge, and she even turned out a few books within the next four months. However, four months later, the urge that had entered her left as quickly as it came. At that point, she realized that, despite those books which she had written over that period of time, she wasn’t really a writer.

She was just someone who wrote a few books, that’s all.

When listening to that interview, I suddenly felt my heart drop like the hood of my Mom’s Daewoo. My thoughts ran back to my site at DA, my blog at LJ, my internet presence in its entirety.

Some of you who have remained here since early last year may be familiar with the small quantity of submission that I turned (or, shall I say, eked) out during the spring and summer. Come fall and winter, however, it was like I didn’t really care as much about this site as I did about others, like Livejournal, yahoo groups, and numerous others.

And now I come back from exile with an epiphany…..of sorts.

I realize now that, just because I wrote several essays and tried my hardest-possible hand at drawing stuff that I thought up in my head, doesn’t mean that I’m actually a writer, or artist. I’m not either, as I do not walk these paths as regularly as I should, neither am I known exclusively for my writing.

However, I want to be that and a whole lot more.

I want to be a writer, an artist, a computer programmer, a collegiate student, all of that and more. And I want to pursue them all on a regular basis.

Why?

Because humans are drawn, naturally, toward those who show some sort of longevity or spectrum: those who can do what they do and continue with that long after even the very initial reason for their existence has expired: those who, through their one or more professions, can show almost every possible aspect, detail, or facet of their life, even through a facade.

So yeah, I’ve decided to come back to writing and drawing stuff for this site at DA. And this time, I’m not going on any self-imposed hiatus just because I don’t feel like writing or drawing.

Nope, I’m going to continue onward, no matter how much push, pull, or shove that I may hold within me.

Because I want to continue walking this path long after the thrill is gone….