Something i picked up the other day:

Which Random Image are you?
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I wonder, does this remind me of myself and how I see myself? i mean, whenever i get home from school, Im usually pissed off at my situation here in fucking georgia. Its hell down here, and Im tempted day in day out to leave this place and go to either Minnesota or Canada. But Im still listening to my friends online (and to the few people I can trust); I cant give up yet, only one more year, and Ill be through.

Anyway, I just finished my first 7-8 pics for DA, and IM rather proud of how they came out. check them out at my DA address, thanx.

What would you look like as a Wolf by smimmary
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What you
Personality:	Depressed. And tired.
Mate?:	Blue
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i found this at somebody’s account and decided to try it out. i was rather surprised: they had my normal mood right, AND the color I usually find myself wearing IS blue. The wolf in there looks rather lonely, and beautiful, in that pose, don’t you think?

i dont know what to write right now. i feel so ready to leave this place. i find myself deteriorating here in georgia, and my sis in iraq isnt coming home ANYTIME soon. the only solace i find here is in my comp. sometimes i just wish i could just walk into the screen and live online, and not worry anymore about what life in the real has depicted me to be.

Im putting more time into drawing, and its getting better. check this one out:

My first anthro piccie! A.k.a. my fursona

That’s how I reacted when i saw the responses to my thread “Giving Precedence to Clubs at DA”. Here’s the link: http://forum.deviantart.com/devart/suggestions/204264.

Pretty much, I was outraged by their response. I mean, why don’t they just go ahead and get rid of clubs for god’s sake?! It’s bullshit, from how I see it. And of course, I had to open my big mouth and say that I owned two clubs, and of course, I got screwed pretty badly. So in response I announced at http://bigcatanthroclub.deviantart.com to all members that the club was leaving DA after the contest was over with, and alot of people have said that they will stay with the club after it transfers to Yahoo! Groups, although some others have said that they wouldn’t be able to make that change for such reasons as 1) they dont have an account at either yahoo! or msn, 2) they didnt know that much about the whole club issue, and 3) they’re too busy at their art to make that change.

So now that DA has shown the ugly side of its ass to me, I’m considering leaving DA for good. I know several people who have left DA because they have seen that side as well. So Im building up my website at http://snowleopardhaven.741.com to include a new section for me so that I can put my stuff from DA in there as well. in the meantime, check it out, because it may be my permanent homepage soon.

I cant wait for the end of the school year too. Only 3 or 4 more weeks!

And my Spanish teacher, Mrs. Bannister, is teaching me French after school for free (im the only student). I asked her to do it since I want to move to Canada, and she’s doing it because she’s going to France this summer for her honeymoon, so we have our reasons for learning or at least brushing up in French.

Ive also gotten my scanner hooked up, and i just scanned my first pic too! I dont know how to show it on this journal, so you’ll have to ask me if I can show it by email, k?

And finally, I have set up my blog at http://www.xanga.com/harryo2004. Come see it!

My best friend, whom I first met on DA, has talked me out of dropping out and moving to Canada out of desperation, and has also talked me into moving up to where she lives as soon as the two of us graduate next year (for me, it comes May 29, 2005). She’s even introduced me, through AIM, to a friend of hers who is also a fur and, if all goes well, will let me bunk with him when, how, and if I move up to where they live.

You guys, I’ve never felt more anxious and excited than I am now. *rolls eyes* OK, well maybe I have, but still, this’ll be the first time that I’ll be living away from home, and I’ve never bunked with anybody as far back as I remember (my nephew and I have a bunkbed in our room, but we barely use it); and I’ll be dealing with the pros and cons of being a roomie.

I don’t know what to expect out of this prearrangement.

I mean, I don’t have any qualms about being a roomie with someone else (even though I’m naturally a loner, so much like a snow leopard), but it seems way too early to call.

What can possibly happen from this point now until our graduation next year? Any possible thing…

Here are a few possibilities: Bush or Kerry might actually pull the troops out of Iraq, and my sis may come home (or the opposite of all that). If she finds out about this prearrangement, how will she react? Will she make me tell my Mom, and if so, how will -she- react?

Or what if none of that happens, but something happens with my friends? I’m not going to make predictions surrounding that, but I hope that nothing really changes from now until next year…

Here’s something I picked up from Jakkal’s Black tapestries site, since of course this is relevant to me (if you dont know what Im referring to, read my essays at DA):

Would you like to Adopt a Kaetif? Kaetif©2003 Jakkal http://www.blacktapestries.com

Since I’m starting to realize more that I am a snow leopard in terms of phenotype, I thought it would be nice to do this.

My future is really at stake, since things are starting to get really screwed around me.

I’m seriously considering running away from home to Ontario, probably move in temporarily with a fur.

That’s right, I’m thinking of dropping out of high school at 17, and running away to Canada. Its a stupid idea of mine, but if you live somewhere in or around that area, can you help me with that?

You may know my face, so if I were to leave, would you take me in? I need help with this, please help me.

Well, its kinda paradoxical how this month turned out.

I’ll remember it for as long as I live.

I started to use IM for Msn and yahoo. I started this new club that, for the first time, was attracting members from left and right. I discovered my furryness.

But of course, there was that one event that has changed my life forever: Mrs. Patrick’s death.

I don’t think I can ever remove the memories of this single week from my mind.

I am convinced not to go to the funeral tomorrow in Montezuma. I can’t bear to see my favorite teacher in a casket. My last image of Mrs. Patrick will be from last Friday, when I stayed late to give in a paper to her. I’ll give her parents a letter of condolences that I hope will make up.

Anyway, now that the initial trauma has seemingly passed, its time to move on to bigger, better things.

I’ve set up this club at DA (http://bigcatanthroclub.deviantart.com) that I hope can attract alot of members and stuff like that.

I also started using MSNIM last weekend. I already started talking with Sunookitsune (http://www.kitsunet.org) and Strype (http://strype.deviantart.com), so “I’m on a roll like Sonic (adage coined by Talib Kweli Green)”!

And finally, I decided to write a new essay telling the world that I’ve discovered my phenotype, my furry side (http://www.deviantart.com/view/6277853). I also wrote it to break up my writer’s block after Mrs. Patrick and all. She always loved my writing.

Man, its been a busy week, a busy month. So I wonder how April’s going to turn out…

My favorite teacher just died today. No warning, just died.

Mrs. Patrick was my favorite teacher, or rather, the only one I had a deep respect for in my whole life.

She inspired me to use my writing as a tool. She was also a great artist. She even drew a great pencil picture of Michael Vick for one of my classmates.

I was in class when she went comatose in her classroom. Everybody was scared as hell. And since I go to a private religious school, all the students and teachers went into the sanctuary of the adjoining church to pray for her.

However, she died of congested heart failure at the hospital. Everybody cried even harder.

Im 17, but I cried on my Mom’s lap. Hard.

It is *the* worst day in my life.

From what I found out, Mrs. Takiya Patrick was young, childless, and, to my surprise, a very sick woman.

We found out that, for a while, only 20% of her heart was working. So now it comes at no sirprise to me that she would go into a coma.

So now, my life as I know it is at an end.

I hope you all can understand what Im going through right now. If you don’t or can’t, please try. I thank you in advance.

Its a sad day today for me. Im not going to go to school for the rest of the week.

Yes, its the end of the week, and I am still wondering about rubber latex suits and m-/p-shifting, if you know what that is. I wrote this essay http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/5999600 where I was talking about rubber latex fursuits, as displayed by kemono inukai (example: http://www.kemonet.com/gallery/p15p15rubberpanther.jpg ). All this entire week, Ive been looking at and drooling over the artworks of strype, kemono, black-rat, nudog, and others, simply for two reasons: furry and muscular.

Anyway, Ive convinced myself that I should find a rubber latex fursuit someplace or make one myself. Do you all have any ideas?

Some of you from DA might know that I will fav a furry/anthro pic in a hot second, something for which, for better or worse, I have been known for. 5 to 6000 pics in my favs list!

However, I have a special affinity for anthro muscle pics, like those of Strype,( http://strype.deviantart.com ) or Nudog ( http://www.yiffydreams.com/~nudog )
Man, their art makes me literally drool, especially pics of Strype in a muscle shirt.

Now, lets get this straight: Im not gay or bi (and no, Im not homophobic, as some buttholes I know are), that’s just my natural reaction to anything or anybody with large intricate muscles or other body parts (like breasts, and Im not going any further), especially anthro/furry chars. Yes, I think that any anthro pic of someone well endowed with big muscles or big breasts is a great anthro pic.

So I have decided to do something that otherwise I would never really want to do:
Workout. That’s right, even though, no matter how large a meal I eat, I never, ever gain weight, Ive decided to try to get muscles of every kind, just like the many anthro and yiff pics I have seen in my lifetime.

Im going to eat alot as usual (probably more), but Im also going to the Gym or someplace to burn the food, calories, and fat off.

Hi ya’ll, you might know me from DA as that writer named raynenamibia (or you might not). But I decided to set up an account here at livejournal just out of curiosity and a click-happy pointy finger.

Im going to be alot more candid about myself in this journal than I am at DA.

Oh and I knwo that Lance Foxx has an account here as well, and since I was inspired by his accounts of p-shifting, I have been long pressed to make a live journal here.

You can read my profile and all, and find out where I am really from and all.

So, this is, I guess this is all I have to say right now.